Finding Faith in Surrender

As some of you may know, in 2021, I was diagnosed with a life threatening endocrine system illness due to a parathyroid tumour. The tumour falsely told the parathyroid that there wasn’t enough Calcium in the blood, so my body began to pull it out of my teeth, nails and bones at a rapid rate.

There are no drugs that can work effectively with the endocrine system. Therefore, no money is provided for research into ways to truly heal it. The only option is surgery. Sadly, this is what our medical system has come to today. IMHO, most doctors are taught to prescribe drugs or to cut out organs. They aren’t actually taught how to heal people as there isn’t any money in that for the big pharmaceutical companies!

I don’t mind if only one option remains because every other avenue has been exhausted. However, to be told I’d need surgery just because no one could be bothered to look into actual healing ~ that didn’t sit well with me.

So in January 2022, I embarked on a complete diet and lifestyle change. I began to study and follow the protocols of one of the World’s best naturopathic doctors and miracles (in my body) occurred so fast it was incredible. Fungal infections went away, Ovarian Cysts dissolved, IBS disappeared and my gut healed, sleep, energy and hormones balanced, all peri-menopausal symptoms disappeared, kidney stones dissolved and my blood work and inflammatory markers went back to normal. I felt younger and healthier than ever.

However, with my 50th birthday fast approaching in October, it became obvious that there was no point healing and detoxing the body if I continually poisoned it with smoking! I’d been a smoker since the age of 16 and had stopped previously in my 30s for nearly five years before starting again. It was the final vice/crutch (so it seemed).

So I did the leg work to understand what a smoking addiction actually meant and how it served as a crutch. I dived into how smoking had wormed it’s way into mental thought patterns and more importantly, how to reprogram those patterns. The last cigarette was extinguished in early October and I’ll never touch another one.

Whilst all of this was fabulous with regard to healing, it was a lot for my system to take in ten months. I’d stopped caffeine, dairy, all grains, starches, processed foods, seeds, nuts and their associated oils (except Olive), alcohol, sleeping aids, sugar and high oxelate fruit & vegetables. In stopping smoking, my system had finally had enough and it rebelled in glorious technicolour!

It still craved a crutch and after a few weeks, I came off several of the protocols responsible for optimum health. Sugar and food suddenly replaced smoking, causing rapid weight gain. All of this upheaval triggered the parathyroid again and last month, I was rushed into A&E with kidney stones and heart palpitations. There was so much Calcium in the blood, it was difficult for the heart to pump it!

I sat in A&E absolutely devastated. To go through all of that only to end up in the same position again was soul destroying. The endocrine consultants were amazed as they had assumed it was impossible to naturally rebalance the body and switch off a parathyroid tumour ~ no one had ever tried. Yet I had and had succeeded too!

Tears of frustration rolled down my face. The mind was screaming not to go under the knife….. that the solution to health problems shouldn’t be to just cut an offending organ out of the body! However…….. it was only the mind that was screaming NO. I had completely forgotten to check in with my body.

The following day, In the car on the way to meet with the surgeon, I was still fired up to fight the system. A voice note dropped in from a dear friend, asking to share something she’d intuitively received. With permission, her reply was to ask very gently, very softly and with so much love…… ‘Kris, have you felt into your body and asked it about having the surgery, rather than resisting it? Maybe your body is shouting for a reason? What if you’re supposed to have that surgery now?’.

Did my Ego mind want to hear that? Hell no. I fell into grumpy silence, eyes closed and felt deep into my throat, heart and kidneys. In the quiet hush of a silent, open mind ~ annoyingly, frustratingly, every organ sighed with relief. It also became apparent that everything was energetically flowing towards surgery. I had 7 separate diagnostic procedures in A&E within three hours, walking straight in to each one without having to queue. They had called me back the next day to meet directly with the surgeon. Unheard of. There was flow. I was gutted.

When it came to the time to meet with the surgeon. I felt sick. Truly sick and scared. My blood pressure had tanked, heart was going mental, temperature had shot up, kidneys were spiking with pain and spitting stones out like they were Smarties, energy levels were  through the floor and the pain and fear were really starting to overwhelm.

We spoke in depth about everything. This lovely man agreed with everything from the shock that no one had ever tried to heal this disease to asking every question under the Sun as to how I’d managed to do so. It became very apparent that I could indeed halt this the illness IF I was willing to stay on all of those incredibly strict protocols for the rest of my days. Am all for living a healthy life, but not to those extremes. When I finally took a deep breath and agreed to trust him with his scalpel, magic happened. It felt like magic as my body stopped shouting. Freakishly, it was INSTANT. So much so, when the surgeon then asked where the pain was, I could only state where it had been as it had completely disappeared.

They then tested my blood pressure. It had gone back to normal. As had my heart rate and temperature. So had the blood results ~ they couldn’t believe the Calcium levels had dropped so much from the day before. My entire body calmed down and went back to normal as if nothing had happened! I even poked a kidney around as there’s a 7mm stone in one of them, but de nada. No pain at all. What the heck?!?!?!?

It was ridiculously freaky, even for me and I’m known as the ‘weird one’ in our family! There were a few hours left for more test results to come back, so I sat quietly in the waiting room and decided to message with my Mum, who had been worried. It was only then that we realised that every woman on the maternal side of the family for several generations had all died of or struggled with heart disease.

My Nan (grandmother) had a triple bypass, my Aunt a pacemaker, my mum Angina and my cousin is currently waiting for a quadruple bypass. My Nan was one of seven sisters and all of them had died of heart related disease ~ except Auntie June.

It turns out, Auntie June had the same disease as myself ~ endocrine and parathyroid growths. She had the operation to remove the offending glands before middle age and lived well into her 90s, despite being a heavy smoker for most of her life!

It was then that I knew, without a doubt, that physical generational patterns/wounds can be passed down from grandmother to mother to daughter, or the same on the fraternal side, within our DNA. Not only had my Soul incarnated to end ancestral emotional and psychological patterns, it seemed that included physical manifestations too! I’ll admit, half of me was blown away, the other half was thinking ‘Oh FFS, this is getting crazy now’ LOL 😉

The women in our family hadn’t been dying of heart disease. They’d likely been dying of undiagnosed endocrine disease for generations. In today’s medical culture, they only look at the endocrine system if there are kidney stones *facepalm*!!! Quite simply, when there is an issue with the heart, doctors don’t even look at the endocrine system to see if Calcium in the blood might be the cause. This is crazy as when too much Calcium thickens the blood, our body lays it down in the arteries around the heart and it becomes a silent killer.

So…….. I am due to have an operation to remove said parathyroid gland as soon as possible. This will end the generational pattern within the women in our family. Going forwards, none of them will have to suffer with heart disease brought on by endocrine disorders. We now have the awareness that our genetic line carries this imbalance and it can be caught early.  The root energetic reason for this issue with the women in our family is a deep fear of speaking our truth ~ or when we do speak our truth, it’s not acknowledged, so our throat becomes damaged after years of energetic suppression and silence. I’ve cleared that ancestral energy too. No woman in our family line will ever have to experience this again.

It was hard to get out of the head and surrender to guidance and intuition. Am in trust in the flow of life and that this is for a reason far greater than myself. I have faith that all is as it is meant to be. And at least am no longer facing a World without chocolate…… although am back on 95% of the health protocols to prepare my body for what is to come 😉

With Love, Krissy xxx